Ch.47 Cold Night and Hot Night.
The shimmering lights of the city pass by.
The dream of singing under those sparkling lights… Now even feels repulsive.
I opened my mouth not to break the silence in the car, but simply out of curiosity.
“You’re the secretary, right? You said you were the director’s girlfriend earlier. But how can you just let him do such dirty things? Are you even conspiring with him?”
This woman, who is called Secretary Shin. She clearly said she was the director’s girlfriend.
Of course, it could be a lie, but the way she looked at him was more affectionate and tender than anyone else’s.
The director also seemed to see her differently from other women…
I don’t know much about these people, but my intuition tells me. They are definitely lovers.
That’s why I couldn’t help but ask, because it made even less sense.
“Hmm~”
“Huh? Say something. What’s good about letting your boyfriend receive sexual hospitality and mix with other women from a girlfriend’s perspective?”
“Ayul, have you ever seen a king hold only one woman?”
“Huh, what king…”
“A king. At that age, he’s the director and representative of NSS Broadcasting, which is called the idol kingdom, and he’s even more handsome and taller than most male idols, right? You admit that too, don’t you? Hehe. A man like that is a king in the dating market. A king.”
“….Sister. You’ve never been in a relationship, have you?”
“…..”
I’ve never been in a relationship either, but this sister talks about men as if she learned from male-oriented novels.
She’s crazy. Both of them are crazy.
“You’re really crazy.”
I blurted it out without realizing.
“This… How many have you even dated! You little…”
“I may not know much, but I can clearly feel that you’re even more clueless in this area. And the age difference between us isn’t that big, so suddenly acting like an adult is a bit much. I’m an adult too, you know.”
“…..Ayul. Even if I don’t have experience, I have a woman’s intuition. My intuition tells me that if you try to chain down such an amazing man, he’ll break free and run away. That’s why I don’t get greedy and let him loose a bit. After all, I’m the main wife. He’s just satisfying his sexual desires with other women. Hehehe…”
Secretary Shin laughed slyly, her eyes half-closed.
She keeps licking her lips, and it seems like there’s something wrong with her mind.
The director is probably the sane one here.
“Sigh. You’re impossible to talk to.”
“Ayul, in a way, I’m grateful to you. I wanted to spend the first night after we started dating with him. I was nervous that you might take your clothes off there.”
“? You haven’t been dating long, have you?”
“Yeah. We haven’t been dating long, but we’ll be together for a long time. Hehe..”
“Yeah, yeah. You two look good together.”
A girlfriend who understands her boyfriend receiving sexual hospitality, and Secretary Shin, who has the body and looks to debut as an idol right away… Why would a woman like that…?
Is the director that great? Or is he just that amazing?
I eventually gave up trying to understand. I decided to let it go, thinking there must be a world I don’t know yet.
“But Ayul. How about doing it with the director once and then appearing on MapDue?”
“Absolutely not! That’s disgusting! That trashy…”
“What’s wrong? The director is handsome and worth doing it with once.”
“I’m still…!”
My emotions got the better of me, and I almost said that I haven’t even had my first experience yet and don’t want to waste it in such a dirty place…
“Huh… Forget it. I don’t want to challenge my dreams like that.”
“Hmm… If you do it, the director will probably push you a lot.”
“Huh? What do you mean…”
“The director thinks your singing has the talent to mesmerize people. This is a pure evaluation of your singing, unrelated to the hospitality. That’s why he’s going this far for you.”
“…What do you mean by pushing me?”
“Well? I’m just a secretary, so I don’t know the details, but maybe he’ll tweak your screen time or something. You know how the voting is 70% audience and 30% experts, right? Maybe he’ll do something on the expert side.”
“Isn’t that… Unfair?”
“What’s unfair about it? The broadcast company decides the screen time anyway, and the 30% expert opinion was announced in advance. If you think about it, getting into the top 90 of MapDue is an even more unreasonable fight, right? That’s purely decided internally. But you’re lucky to have this opportunity? So think about it carefully.”
I was at a loss for words.
I couldn’t think of anything to refute.
Or maybe I just thought it had nothing to do with me.
As we entered a familiar road, I said,
“Let me off here!”
“Why? I’ll take you home. Tell me the exact location.”
“I told you from the start to just take me this far! Let me off!”
“Ah, alright. Someone might think I’m kidnapping you.”
As the car stopped, I immediately opened the door and rushed out.
I almost fell for her sweet talk.
No, there’s no way I’d fall for something like that.
“Ayul! Don’t regret it later while watching MapDue on TV and think it over…”
I didn’t even listen to what Secretary Shin was saying and just ran.
I passed through the bustling streets and entered a narrow, yellowish concrete alley.
I’m more familiar with places like this than the flashy streets.
As I went deeper into the alley, I saw my nest in the distance.
A tattered blue iron gate.
This neighborhood, a model of a shantytown, is where I live.
Only then did I stop running and catch my breath.
“Haa… Haa… Huu…”
My mind was a mess, so I just ran.
If I walked and thought calmly, it felt like the devil’s temptation would speak to me.
Why does that feel so scary…
“Yeah, who do I think I am…”
I shook my head hard to snap out of it and told myself to forget about today’s events and pretend they never happened.
As I was about to gather myself and go inside, I ran into my grandmother at the entrance.
The grandmother who has taken care of me and my younger sibling since we were abandoned as children was pulling a cart from a different alley than the one I came from.
The cart was loaded with piles of scrap paper several times larger than her small frame.
“Ah, grandma! I told you not to pick up scrap paper! I’m looking for another part-time job, so you should rest at home!”
“Oh my, my little puppy. Grandma has to contribute somehow… You know Sung-hyun, that thing, soccer! When he goes to high school next year, he has to keep playing soccer…”
“He said he won’t play soccer in high school. So, it’s fine…”
“But I have to save up while I’m still healthy… Grandma couldn’t help with your first dreams, but if you have a second dream later…”
“Let’s go inside first. We’ll talk inside.”
Hearing my grandmother’s words made me feel even more choked up.
Grandma seems to think we gave up on our dreams because we didn’t have money.
To some extent, that’s true… But why does she feel guilty? It’s so frustrating…
As I brought grandma inside, she smiled warmly and patted my head.
“My granddaughter will definitely succeed. You’re so pretty and sing so well…”
“Yeah… I’ll succeed…”
I muttered a lonely, uncertain promise.
Our house relies more on wearing extra layers than the boiler for heating.
I turned on the TV while still wearing my coat, and a music show was playing.
I had just been to that stage to see how it looks, and I had imagined myself standing on that stage so many times.
I’m so envious of the idols who are beautifully made up and dressed in fancy clothes.
“If my granddaughter appeared there, grandma would have no regrets, hehe…”
“Yeah… Then I’d achieve my dream and make a lot of money to help grandma too.”
“Ayul is such a filial granddaughter. Hehe…”
Sigh… If I just close my eyes once… My sibling, grandma… Sigh…
I had already deleted Director Kim Han-seo’s number from my phone earlier in the car.
But I couldn’t bring myself to throw away Director Kim Han-seo’s business card, which I was still fiddling with in my pocket.
‘If I just sacrifice myself… Sigh…’
Tonight feels really cold.
***
“The kid must be really upset.” As soon as Secretary Shin, who had dropped off Ayul, saw me, she said.
“She has every right to be angry. She might misunderstand, thinking I looked down on her because she’s a busking performer. Or like she said, she might think I treated her like someone who sells her body… I do feel a bit sorry.”
“Then will you put her in MapDue without the sexual hospitality?”
“No! No way! No matter how excellent her singing was, she doesn’t even have an agency. Pushing someone with no affiliation requires getting something in return…”
“Pervert.”
“Hmm, how logical. Well then, get undressed first.”
“What?”
I abruptly kissed Secretary Shin on the lips.
Smooch♡
I also grabbed her voluminous buttocks firmly, making Secretary Shin cling tightly to my body.
The fully rounded parts were so fun to touch♡
Squish squish♡
“Urgh.. Urgh!! Puhah!”
“What? Why are you resisting like this?”
“No, it’s just so sudden! That was my first kiss! So ruthlessly…”
“What’s more important is that I was your first kiss. Come here. Let’s continue.”
“There should be some progression…”
“What progression? All the girls who came to entertain me had sex with me right on the first day we met. Besides, you and I haven’t been acquaintances for just a day or two, so let’s just have sex right away.”
“Sigh… You speak so vulgarly, I wonder how you view women’s feelings.. Kyaa!”
I picked up Secretary Shin and headed to the bathroom.
It seems urgent, but once there was no reason not to devour Secretary Shin, I couldn’t control myself.
By the way, the bathroom was spacious enough to have a vanity table and sufficient storage space for clothes. I put Secretary Shin down and started kissing again.
Smooch♡ Slurp♡ Suck♡
Secretary Shin seemed to have adapted and passively received the kisses, but inexperience with first kisses was evident.
Tensing the lips firmly, eyes tightly shut, and arms not knowing what to do, just holding onto my arms.
This woman who used to be like a fox is now so sexy and cute.
I’ll teach you each experience throughout the night.
I’ve prepared oil too.
Imagining a slippery and hot night, my penis became fully erect…
